What am I doing here

What am I doing here
I don't believe it
What am I doing here
It goes against my beliefs
What am I doing here
It goes against my principals
What am I doing here
Have I been corrupted by the system?
What I doundn't do
To support my family?
What lengths woudn't I go
to make sure
They are well and sound
It is hard to think
I am not who I was
I've changed so much
I can hardly recognise me
Am I who I was
or just someone else?
Am I doing this for love
Or because society expects?
I don't feel love
I feel pressure, responsibilities
I feel overwhelmed
Insensibility
Life is no joy
Just the sense to provide

by Renato de Oliveira